2 months Later...

I don't know what has been going on!  I have felt no motivation to blog, no motivation to exercise, no motivation to read people's blogs.  It has not been good.  What has been good though?  My eating.  It certainly is far from perfect but I have managed to still lose a little bit of weight without exercising and eating healthy.  I am VERY happy about that!

I am also doing a cleanse, the Wild Rose Herbal D-Tox.  A friend of mine did it at work and she said she felt wonderful after it.  I am about to begin Day 5 out of 12 days.  So far, so good.  I basically can't eat wheat (which I can't anyway due to my excema), dairy, sugar or anything fermented.  It has been difficult giving up the dairy and sugar.  Morning coffee...black.  And I think I am allowed two cups a day.  Luckily I hate black coffee so I have only one a day.  And I love my cottage cheese and yogurt with fruit for a snack!  It has been a difficult adjustment but I do feel better.  So hopefully I can get through these next 7 days!

Other than that not much is going on.  I am a bridesmaid for a wedding in Wisconsin in the middle of May.  I had a major freak-out the day after Easter when I tried on my bridesmaid dress and it DID NOT FIT!  Crap!  I was quite confused over how it didn't fit, since I actually weigh a few pounds less now than when I originally bought it.  But in the end, I bought a new strapless bra and it seems to fit.  I think it was my old strapless bra wasn't a good shape for the dress.  The only issue now with it is that it actually slips down a little in the front.  I guess I can't win.  At least I can do it up, anything else I can deal with.  I am heading to Toronto for 5 days to visit some friends before traveling to Wisconsin, so I need to make sure I keep my eating/drinking under control.  But I am getting excited!!  I haven't seen the bride in about, oh goodness...5 years?  It will be really nice.  Anyway, I am about to go make a good cleanse breakfast, and then I think I may even do the 30 Day Shred.  I did it a few nights ago and I feel good after and the next day.  Plus, I need my arms toned for this wedding!  Happy Saturday!

It's Been A While!

Gosh, I didn't realize it had been so long since I last posted!  I have no real reason for this, except being really tired lately.  Work has been super stressful and most days I have just come home and done nothing.  I haven't been working out, I haven't been eating right.  I have really had no motivation, or energy, I don't really know what has been wrong with me.  I think I feel quite confused about my life at the moment; where to go with my career, to buy a condo or to go travelling, to go back to school, what to take if I go back to school, so many questions.  So I have felt a little stressed about all these thoughts and ideas and questions.  

But yesterday I decided no more.  Sure I have questions about how my life is going to go and there are things I don't not have control over.  But what do I have control over?  I have control over my weight, my workout routines, and the food I eat.  A while ago I bought the 30 Day Shred, I used it once.  Last night I did it again.  It was still hard!  And tonight I did it as well.  I have decided to commit to using it for the 30 days consecutive and see how things go after that.  I am hoping this will give me the motivation and some results that I need in my weight-loss journey.  So hold me accountable!  My 30 days is from Feb 10-March 11.  2 Days down, 28 to go!  My abs are killing me, so something must be working.  I'm excited to see the change.

New Toys

Well lately the gym and I have not been friends.  So I decided to buy Wii Fit so I can "workout" at home.  I know it is certainly not as beneficial as the gym, but at least on days I am tired, I can put it in, and feel like I am at least getting some exercise in!  I also have TERRIBLE balance, so this will help me out!  Anyway, that is all to report.  Happy Monday!

Goodbye Work Week...Hello Weekend!

The week is OVER!  Finally.  I feel this has been one of the longest and most frustrating weeks of work.  It all began with last weekend.  I decided to go into the office on Sunday just for a couple hours to clean a few things up.  I knew it was going to be a long week, and I had a list of things I needed to get done, so I figured if I could be a tiny bit organized and accomplish a few things on Sunday I would feel better.  Right?  Right.  So I did feel much better after Sunday, and I went into work Monday knowing it would be long, but knowing I had prepared.  Well a million chain of events occurred on Monday, which really led to complete chaos at work.  Basically, I had a child come in right when the day began and she refused to go to school, refused to leave etc.  So I had to spend the day with her coming up with different options.  That was fine.  We ended up going out for lunch, and what kind of food did she want?  Chinese food.  Not my favorite on a good day.  But I was hungry so I had to eat.  And that was hard to track and either way, not worth the points!  If I am going to spend a lot of points...give me a burger or something!

Anyway, to make a long story short because of all of these chain of events, I missed lunch on both Tuesday and Thursday, and I didn't get home until after 730pm every night.  Was I happy?  NO!  So I did no exercise...the reason, I was exhausted.  Is that an excuse?  Probably, but it is the honest truth.  I did track most of the things I ate, which was my goal for this week and I did go over a tiny bit on my points.  In the end, I lost 0.4  When I originally started this week I was really hoping for a bigger lost because I felt so on track, but I am happy that at least I lost a little and I am hoping that this week will be better.  Actually...positive thinking...this week WILL be better!

Go Me!

I have been feeling very on track and on points this week!  Yay!  Granted...my weigh-in days are Thursdays, so my week has only just begun but I think I am really doing well.  Every weekend I struggle with going over my points.  And every weekend, I know I go over and I just say that I use all my 35 flex points, without adding it up as to what I have really used.  Maybe I have used all 35, or maybe I used even more!!  If I used more, then I  should during the week just eat my normal daily points and try and get more activity in.

However; this weekend though I have track EVERY SINGLE THING that has gone into my mouth.  Those 4 milk duds...tracked!  1 timbit...in my journal.  10 french fries...you guessed it...it was written down!  I will say I now don't have any flex points left but I have also not gone OVER the 35!  And I have been conscious of the food choices I made.  I was tempted to order a burger and fries for dinner tonight, but instead, knowing I had gone over my points yesterday, chose to have a chicken greek salad and had 10 of my friends fries instead to satisfy that craving!  Anyway, I am feeling proud and I know I can keep up with this all week.

In other news...I have been slacking about reading others blogs.  I find by the time I get home from work I am exhausted.  So I am going to sit down and read everyones tomorrow and start commenting.  I can't wait to learn more about all of you.  Especially those on Lynn's Team!!  

Randomness

I dropped one of my slices of pizza on the floor today.  I was sad.

I really need to get my after work eating under control.  I come home, have a normal size dinner and then proceed to snack.  What?  I think the rule of no eating after 7pm is going to have to begin again.

Most exciting about today was...The Biggest Loser has started again!  LOVE IT!  I was so happy.  I haven't decided who I like the best yet, however; both the orange and white teams have won my heart.  Plus, the brown and red team seem really special.  So I can't wait to see who gets to come back after 30 days!  What a twist!  It did also make me realize I need to begin my 30 Day Shred again.  Tomorrow.  I know that sounds like an excuse, but I can't tonight, it is past 11pm and I need to go to sleep.  So tomorrow...me and Jillian.  I can't wait!

Time to get back on the lunch wagon

Today was not a good day for eating.  Or for my budget!  I had to run out of my house this morning and did not have time to grab my lunch, or even breakfast.  Before going to the office I had to go and meet with some people.  Unfortunately, my car is snowed in and I had to take the bus, so this whole process took a lot longer than expected.  By the time my meeting was over and by the time I made it back to the office it was noon and I was STARVING!!  I had no food and even though I could have gone to Subway which is just up the road I went to Starbucks.  And what did I proceed to get?!?!  A grande skinny vanilla latte...not too bad.  A feta wrap, yogurt with berries and an oat fudge bar!  I was STUFFED by the time I finished eating it all and it cost me almost $15!

Anyway, I have vowed that tomorrow I will be more prepared with my food.  Tomorrow's plan:

Breakfast:

2/3 cup cottage cheese (2pts)

Small Apple (1pt)

Coffee (2pts)

5/19

Snack:

Grapefruit (...pt)

.../19

Lunch:

2 slices of homemade pizza with spinach, tomatoes and feta (... pts)

Yogurt (1pt)

.../19

Dinner:

Salad (0pts)

Unclear what else

.../19

Clearly I need to look up a few point values which I am too tired to do at the moment, but come tomorrow I will be on track with my tracking!  Hope everyone has a happy Tuesday!

Happy New Year!!

2009.  I still can't believe it is already 2009.  I don't know what it is, but I wasn't prepared for Christmas, or New Years, or now 2009.  But life continues to happen even when I am not prepared it seems.  

As 2009 begins I am thinking about the upcoming year and all that it entails.  One thing is, I will be a bridesmaid in one of my closest friends wedding.  Although she hasn't narrowed down the bridesmaid dresses yet, she is thinking this will be the one.  I really like this one, so I hope it is the final one chosen.  We need to order them fairly soon as the wedding is in May.

I have many goals for this year so I figure if I write them down it will help keep me more accountable.

GOALS:

1) Stick to my budget!!  I want to be debt-free from my car by the end of this year, and I want to have saved about $15,000 for a down payment.  If I stick to my budget I know I can do both.

2) Stick to my points!  I currently only get 19 points a day on weight watchers and it is damn hard sticking to those points!  But I know I can do it, and I know the end result is worth it.  That extra cookie...not worth it most days.

3) Track my points.  In my head, I usually stick to the points I remember eating.  I really need to make a better effort with this.  Over Christmas my tracking flew out the window and I need to get back on track.

4) Increase my water intake.  I have struggled with drinking 8 glasses of water a day forever, so I have decided to focus on 6 glasses a day and once I have mastered that I will work my way up to 8 glasses a day.  

5) Keep my room and office organized!  I don't know what happens but I clean, I organized and a few days later it is a disaster again.

6) Workout 3 days a week, whether it is in the gym, doing a video or going for a walk and lifting weights.

7) Take more pictures!  I got a new digital camera for Christmas and I LOVE pictures!  So I need to take more.

8) Read one book a month.  

9) Write one real letter to someone a month.  Who doesn't like getting real letters in the mail?  I have lived in many different places in my life so therefore; I have tons of people I could write to!  I might as well.

10) Have a family games night once a month.  My step-father was really sick in November and there were a few days when I honestly thought he wasn't going to make it.  It has really helped me put everything into perspective and realize the important things in my life.  I need to spend more time with my parents and I think this will be a good activity for us all to do.

Well I think those are fairly good and realistic goals for me in this upcoming year, I am feeling really optimistic about 2009.  I can't wait to have new beginnings, get to my goal weight and (hopefully) be debt-free!  I probably say this every year, but I really think 2009 is going to be an amazing year and I'm so excited to be at the place in my life surrounded by loved ones and safety and a bright future.  Can't wait to see how the year unfolds!